This year has been hard.

Well, let's just say this school year has been an interesting one. (Since I am a teacher, my year starts in August and ends in June so I measure it that way. If you are a teacher you get it. LOL) It started off great. I was pregnant and so excited, but as most of you know, that didn't turn out so well. I lost the baby on September 26th. It has been a long road, but I think we have made it up the hill and now are coasting down. This last week, my world came crashing down around me once again. I got a frantic phone call around 4:30 on March 3rd from my Mom saying there was something wrong with my dad. I have dreaded this phone call for all of my adult life since my Dad has suffered heart attacks over the years. My Dad had a mild stoke or a TIA as they call it. It caused him to not remember anything longer than 2 minutes for the better half of 9 hours. We would have conversations during this time and he would forget we ever had them. He said he felt like he was hallucinating. It was a long road in the hospital for 4 days and lots of tests, but my Dad was a real trooper. He is such an important person in my life, I can't imaging my life without him. All of this has made me look at life a little more differently. I have to say that the last months have been extremly stressful. The last week especially. I am glad to look to the future and spend as much time as possible with everyone that I love. I may not always feel that I am lucky, but I am. I have a wonderful husband, brilliant son, family that is always there, and friends who listen. I often try to find reasons for why such things happen, but I am coming to believe that sometimes we aren't meant to know the reasons.

Let's move on to some happier news. My son has discovered Power Rangers in the past couple of months. He is obsessed with them. He tells me that I am the yellow power ranger, Daddy is the blue power ranger, and he is the red power ranger. He talks about Megazords and spirt rangers all the time. He is so cute. He has grown up so much in the last months. I love this stage. I am sure I have said that about all of his other stages too though. LOL

One more thing...Scott's 30th birthday is Friday so if you catch him, tell him Happy Birthday. I still think he looks the same as when I fell in love with him when he was just 19.

Flying By!

WOW. It is already February. Where did all the time go? It has been a rough couple of months here and at the same time it has been good. Weird I know... Scott has officially launched MJ Entertainment. He has been so busy with it and he looks so happy. He and his friend Scott are a mobile DJ service. he is doing such a great job and it is nice to see him so excited about something. Countrywide did another round of layoffs and a lot of his friends didn't make the cut. I hate to say that we were "lucky" when so many others were not so lucky. On of my best friends got laid off so it is hard to be happy for my family when she is looking for another job. It was very hard on Scott to watch all of his friend leave. (I know it could have been worse for him to be laid off too.) There were over 200 + employees in his department just a year or so ago and now they are down to 30. Pretty drastic change which is very depressing. It is hard to be thankful, but we are. Back to the MJ thing. He has been so down about his job since all the layoffs and even before since they had an idea that they were coming. It was kind of a depressing place to be. It is so great to see him excited about doing something. Last night, they DJ'd a Daddy and Daughter dance in Gunter. He was practicing dance moves before he left. You think you know someone who never dances and then they go and change on you! ;-)) I saw video late last night and it looked like a GREAT PARTY! All the girls were dancing and the Daddy's were having a great time too. They did an awesome job. He was so jazzed when he got home and I had to wait up to see the pictures and videos. Like I said, its nice to see him so happy. They have actually started booking proms too. Business is booming right now which is great!

Back to the sad parts of this year so far. Most of you know that we lost a baby back in September. I was almost 12 weeks pregnant when I had the miscarriage. If feels like my body has taken a beating. We have been trying ever since and we can't seem to get lucky. My cycles are so wacky and my hormones are going nuts. Right after I miscarried, I felt like I needed to make a plan to try again. I am a planner by nature. We had only been planning on getting pregnant at that time for 3 years. I plan everything. I think this whole experience has taught me that I can't plan everything. I have to sit back and enjoy the ride. I don't want to look back on this time and regret not spending enough time with Blake or Scott. It is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes though. We got pregnant with both children the first month we tried. I am wondering if God wanted me to see what so many other women have gone through. It shouldn't be that easy for me when others have troubles. God has a plan, I just don't have a clue what it is... I have to say that the whole experience has brought us closer. The way he has supported me through the tough times while going through all of this has shown me the reason I picked him all those years ago. We have been together for 11 years now and I love him so much more than I ever thought I could. I still wish he would help do laundry and dishes more. LOL But I am a very lucky woman. If I am only blessed with Blake, then I will be happy.

Speaking of Blake, he is such a big boy these days. He has discovered Power Rangers. He eats, sleeps, and breathes them. They are a little different than when I grew up with them. We watch Power Rangers Jungle Fury. He says that he is the Red Ranger, Daddy is the Blue Ranger, and Mommy is the Yellow Ranger. I tried to tell him I wanted to be a Pink Ranger and he was not happy. LOL (There actually isn't a pink one on this Power Rangers) We officially signed him up for Preschool this past month also. He will officially start school next September. WOW! How times flies! He tells me he wants to go to school now! I keep telling him he has to wait to get bigger, but he informs me he already is. :-)

My Little Cowboy

I was watching my boy today and I had tears come to my eyes. He is getting so big so fast. I know all you Moms understand what I am saying. Recently, Scott and I have been cleaning out our garage going through old clothes and deciding what to keep and such. We came to the boxes of clothes that Blake has had through the years and we would look at his little shoes or his favorite shirt and tears would come to my eyes. (I could tell Scott was a little chocked up, but would never admit it. hehehe) We forget how little he was. I was pulling out some keepsakes and found his Tigger costume from when he was 1 and Blake saw it. I showed it to him and he said he was too big to be Tigger. My little boy is growing up. I remember everyone telling me when he was a baby and I couldn't wait for him to start crawling or walking or talking or whatever milestone was next. I remember them telling me don't be in a hurry for him to grow, you will regret it one day. A lot of Moms told me this or something like this and I paid no attention. This is my message to all you Moms out there. I was wrong! My little boy is growing and I can't stop him. I have to say you ALL were right! I want him to be little. Only one more school year and he will be in Kinder. Anyways. To all of you to be Moms and Moms of little ones. Don't rush the milestones. Be patient and cherish the moments. You can't shrink them once they have grown. LOL

I took a picture of him today in his big boy cowboy boots and his cowboy hat. He looks so adorable and BIG! We went to his aunt Nini's birthday party at Babe's. He was so adorable in this. Of course we had to wear short sleeve's because it was 80 in Texas today. YIKES! I can't believe he has hit another growth spurt. I had to go out this weekend and buy another size pants. He amazes me everyday. I hope you enjoy the picture as much as I enjoyed him telling me he was Cowboy Blake. Couldn't get him to say cheese or smile. He is saying, "YEEEHAAA."

Finally a blogger!

Well. I decided that I needed to join the blogging band wagon this year! I am new at this, but hopefully I will be able to learn a little more about how to do this. I need to join this century. LOL Look here for updates on our family soon. Here is a family picture of us from Christmas to get it started. Blake wouldn't smile because he was tired of taking pictures. I can't imagine why!!! Happy New Year everyone!