Flying By!

WOW. It is already February. Where did all the time go? It has been a rough couple of months here and at the same time it has been good. Weird I know... Scott has officially launched MJ Entertainment. He has been so busy with it and he looks so happy. He and his friend Scott are a mobile DJ service. he is doing such a great job and it is nice to see him so excited about something. Countrywide did another round of layoffs and a lot of his friends didn't make the cut. I hate to say that we were "lucky" when so many others were not so lucky. On of my best friends got laid off so it is hard to be happy for my family when she is looking for another job. It was very hard on Scott to watch all of his friend leave. (I know it could have been worse for him to be laid off too.) There were over 200 + employees in his department just a year or so ago and now they are down to 30. Pretty drastic change which is very depressing. It is hard to be thankful, but we are. Back to the MJ thing. He has been so down about his job since all the layoffs and even before since they had an idea that they were coming. It was kind of a depressing place to be. It is so great to see him excited about doing something. Last night, they DJ'd a Daddy and Daughter dance in Gunter. He was practicing dance moves before he left. You think you know someone who never dances and then they go and change on you! ;-)) I saw video late last night and it looked like a GREAT PARTY! All the girls were dancing and the Daddy's were having a great time too. They did an awesome job. He was so jazzed when he got home and I had to wait up to see the pictures and videos. Like I said, its nice to see him so happy. They have actually started booking proms too. Business is booming right now which is great!

Back to the sad parts of this year so far. Most of you know that we lost a baby back in September. I was almost 12 weeks pregnant when I had the miscarriage. If feels like my body has taken a beating. We have been trying ever since and we can't seem to get lucky. My cycles are so wacky and my hormones are going nuts. Right after I miscarried, I felt like I needed to make a plan to try again. I am a planner by nature. We had only been planning on getting pregnant at that time for 3 years. I plan everything. I think this whole experience has taught me that I can't plan everything. I have to sit back and enjoy the ride. I don't want to look back on this time and regret not spending enough time with Blake or Scott. It is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes though. We got pregnant with both children the first month we tried. I am wondering if God wanted me to see what so many other women have gone through. It shouldn't be that easy for me when others have troubles. God has a plan, I just don't have a clue what it is... I have to say that the whole experience has brought us closer. The way he has supported me through the tough times while going through all of this has shown me the reason I picked him all those years ago. We have been together for 11 years now and I love him so much more than I ever thought I could. I still wish he would help do laundry and dishes more. LOL But I am a very lucky woman. If I am only blessed with Blake, then I will be happy.

Speaking of Blake, he is such a big boy these days. He has discovered Power Rangers. He eats, sleeps, and breathes them. They are a little different than when I grew up with them. We watch Power Rangers Jungle Fury. He says that he is the Red Ranger, Daddy is the Blue Ranger, and Mommy is the Yellow Ranger. I tried to tell him I wanted to be a Pink Ranger and he was not happy. LOL (There actually isn't a pink one on this Power Rangers) We officially signed him up for Preschool this past month also. He will officially start school next September. WOW! How times flies! He tells me he wants to go to school now! I keep telling him he has to wait to get bigger, but he informs me he already is. :-)